i told rafael i will write a poem
about how miltos chose art
instead of a giros restaurant chain
but then i felt bad about making fun
of miltos’ horrible life choices
and decided not to write that poem

the greatest error
in my life so far is
not playing tennis
with irena and wyne
in amsterdam
this weekend.

i will never be able
to correct this error.
the damage is made.
opportunity is missed.
i will somehow learn
to live with it.

at their last second of life
they will try to hug
their murderer
in hope of human contact.

in a world in which
a lot of our decisions still depend
on centralized mass media
investigative (real) journalists,
are necessary as an alternative
to corporate and political bullshit.

otherwise, our decisions
will be poorly informed
and quality of life of everyone
will diminish.

i want twenty kids
i want one kid
i want a life partner without kids
i want a partner sometimes
i only want friends
i want to be alone
i do not want to live

if you do not enjoy
the miracle of life
while you are alone
in a completely dark room
no amount of money
or anything
will make you happy

silicon valley
is not anymore
a relentless machine
which produces
life changing innovation
for the entire world

it has became a door
which remains closed
for most of the innovators
and charges the few
for the privilege
of letting them through

i know exactly
what my life mission is:
it is to save billions of people
from stupidity.
i just did not figure out
how to do it… yet.

it is strange that
i have lived so long and well
and if my life ends now
i will not complain,
but my life keeps getting
better and more fun
which confuses me.
i hope everyone
got the same deal.

modernists got carried away
and deleted all the knowledge
about how to live a good life.

this made us all
very anxious about our future.

we have doctors and internet
but no idea
what we will do the next year.

in the last
second of my life
i will imagine
a perfect future of my kids
so i die super happy

i have lived for 45 years
and it feels so very long
and i have done so much

make errors all your life
and just before you die
teach others how to fix them

ambition
golf swing
golf shot
golf game
golf player
golf tournament
golf
sports
media
business
capitalism
society
humans
animals
life
universe
nothingness

nirvana and metanoia
can not be reached
in such a short life
filled with so many distractions

life now is harder than ever before.

technology did not make life easier.
technology made life harder.

life is easier with simple needs.
life is harder with complex needs.

whole my life
i am angry about something.
now i am finally closer
to finding out what it is.

dominique,
please accept my apologies
for not making a product
which shares your wisdom
with the humanity
while providing you
with a comfortable family life

list of consciousness levels
humans can reach
within a normal life time:

physical pain
overwhelming panic
constant trauma management
rejection of everything
robot behavior
pleasure chasing
efficient calculator
angry at the world
random realizations
aware of self
aware of all humans

be careful not to waste your life
thinking you are changing things
while you are only satisfying
the need for change
with your useless nonsense
which prevents real change.

the key to real change
is very specific
and takes decades to discover
and only few can discover it.

be careful because there is nothing
more scary than a wasted life.

when i like
student architectural drawings
on reddit
i am giving these students
a confidence boost
for the rest of their lives.

no matter how hard their life is
they will always remember
the success they had on reddit
to which i contributed.

at this point in my life
i feel very comfortable
with artists’ rants.

i am still to meet an artist
who isn’t ranting nonsense
most of the time.

i learned to respect it
and have accepted
their undefined terminology.

one day
i will have
the last sex of my life

there is nothing better
for figuring out life
than a bit of a random
chest pain and shortness of breath

few times in my life
i made visual art
and it was fun and beautiful
but it was too slow and too much hard work.

i chose to write poetry
because it is fast and easy
and i can often change my mind
and go through hundreds of ideas.

but finally i have found
a way to make visual art
and not be bored by the hard work.
i hope it works out.

visual art is cool
and my kids might like it
more than my poetry.
and i will meet new people.

i think it is a great loss
that many people have been convinced
that the next generation
should not continue the work of the past generation.
as if working for some stupid public company
is a better life option than learning from your parents
and continuing their vision.

this is an interesting place!
i figured out this place!
this place is ending soon!
i will enjoy this place just a bit more…

i was watching
a jean-paul belmondo
youtube video le professionnel
and it made me very sad
because it reminded me
of my father, his life, and the things he liked.

at the same time
i was in a weeks long discussion
with a friend
about what is feminine.

i asked her
if sadness is feminine
because she knows this
better than me.

because
if sadness is feminine
then watching a jean-paul belmondo video
is very feminine.

today new age of history started!
we published the first
opportunity on openinnovation.me
creating a connection between
designers of factory tools
and
factory workers who use them.
this is amazing!
this is the seventh best day in my life!
i am so proud!
now i can die happy!

it is ok to choose
any story
for you life

as long as you know
you chose a story
for your life

this morning
while taking a shower
i forgot how old i was.

as soon as i got out
i asked irena if i was
fourty four or fourty five years old.

she told me i was forty four years old.
i was very happy because
i won a free year of life.

i have been watching BBC
for most of my life
and i have seen their reporters
stage the most fucked up fake racist news
and then rush off to hyatt to hookers and cocaine

arghgh
ashasgahsga
ghgrrgghh
ghhhgarg
grghgr

managers who focus
only on increasing shareholder value
have wasted their life
and no hobby can fix that

managers who thought
that increasing shareholder value
will change the society through innovation
are morons

i am at the age when
i can say that
i am at the half of my life
but i am closer to the age
when i have to stop
saying that
unless i am in lotr.

most of my poems
are written in a timeline
i have been writing
for the past 23 years.
it is a documentation
of one aspect of
half of my life.
this poem is written
on page 501.

the scariest thing
about hollywood is
that it has
programmed me
to be something
which is not me
and therefore i have
never existed
and my entire life
was lost

i hope
kanye west dies before me
because
his music is
the most perfect representation
of how a person changes through life
and i want to see the whole thing

it is most likely
that no alien civilization
will be as stupid as we were
to bother with building
such useless technology
as spaceships.

most likely they will
figure out how to live
a long and happy life
in the environment
they grew up in.

let me try put this life lesson
into a semi decent poem:
the main thing about
the things you have
is that they cost more
to keep then to get.
and i am not talking about
houses and money and that stuff.
hope that makes
some sense to someone.

he gave his life
so we can pretend
that our fantasies
are better than
the reality
which is
a fancy way
to say
he is as useful
as crossfit

i found a bug in the hallway
and threw it in the toilet.
an hour later i went to pee
and the bug was still there swimming.
i felt sorry for it
but i really needed to pee
so i peed on it and flushed.
i felt bad about doing it but i did it.
the bug did not get flushed
and kept swimming.
i was very happy.
i made a little stick out of toilet paper
and took it out
and released it outside.
i hope it had a great life
with a great family and an awesome career
and lots of kids and grand kids.
this bug is my hero.

the last conversation
the conversation before that
and the conversation before that

i experienced a moment
of unbelievable beauty
for only a nanosecond.
i was fat and in my bed,
the room was dark
and i moved the playstation controller
up and down
and it casted a shadow
on the wall
which i saw in the mirror.
some people never experience
such beauty
in their entire life.

she is a post-it note
saying:
ideology is not a chit chat
but life and death stuff.

living so long is boring.
I think we were not meant
to live so long.
I can not remember
most of my life anyway
because it is so long.
the only thing that makes sense
is to be with the kids.
now i just have to
invent some stuff to do
to fill few more years.
I miss war.

if someone
had shown me
a business plan
for a human life
i would have never invested
in my own life
and would skip
my own birth.

all i wanted from life
was to sleep most of the day
eat ton of cakes and not get fat

and then comes all this stuff
with people getting sick
dieing and fighting

i want emotion
i want life
i want to change everything
i want to be the chosen one
i want to succeed
i want to be loved
i want to love
i want to become
a nuclear weapon of love
i want to live forever
i will live forever
i will never die
and everybody will love me
every second of my neverending life
will be an extreme explosion
of wonderful emotions
time is nothing
love it everything
because i am buying
this toothbrush

you are a
very smart
very hardworking
very talented
very dutch boy

this book shows
that very early
you have discovered
a working system

is it worth
dedicating
your life
to this
or any system

or should you go
where no dutch boy
has gone before

i am so smart
i could just explode

i am so smart
i should never die
and if i ever die
every second of my life
should be studied by
million scientists

i am so smart
that i can only
talk to
dolphins and aliens

i am so smart
so gods envy me

i am so smart
if you smell my fart
you can learn
all the secrets
of the universe

thanks
for letting me live
so long
im already 30
that is already
way too much
a bit more would
be ok
but i am not
pressuring
whatever you decide
is cool with me

i would not like
to have my penis cut off
by a cigar cutter
to fall face down and
break my teeth on a rock
to insult someone so much
that they never speak to me again
to have lumbal punction
or to burry my children
while dying of
a very painful cancer
while my wife is cheating
on me with my best friend
who owes me money

i am 28 years old and
that is already more than enough
i guess its important not to
worry yourself about it too much