i have to again
apologize
for how shitty and cringe
my poems are.
sometimes i read them
and i am
utterly mortified
how shitty they are.
including this one.

and just like that
i am now
an old stupid guy
who gives shitty advice to
awesome young people

i feel something is
quite shitty about milano
but i am afraid to say it
because i do not want
to offend my friends
and i love milano
because it was my home.
what should i do?

if i do not
write a poem today
it will be a shitty day

i know it is cooler to make art
than doing most other jobs
but still, please, make sure
that what you make is real art.

since we do not know
what exactly is real art
there is a chance
that in all the hype
you tricked yourself into believing
that what you make is real art.

i will help you
figure out what real art is
but you will have to trust me.
email me at nikola@tosic.com.

please
do not underestimate
how difficult it is
to write
these shitty poems.

each of them needed
a unique moment of
desperate agency.

shitty poetry has no respect for
style, grammar, coolness, popularity,
and exists only for the message
whatever it might be

in a world which is overly saturated
with extremely convincing content
you must develop your own thinking frameworks
in order to find your own version of good.

if you allow yourself to be passive,
your identity will dissolve.

write philosophy and poetry because it is easy
and even if it is shitty
you will still be stronger
and more independent, like me.

there is so little
that can be said
with these short poems

i think therefore i am
is not correct
because if we do not talk
to other people
we do not exist.

actually,
if we do not fight
with other people
we do not exist.

the worst way
to write a poem
is to try to write a poem.

you will either
wait for seven hours
to get a decent idea
or you will write
a shitty poem
like i just did.

for a short moment
i had a daydream
how i will take weeks
to write a perfect poem
with lots of hidden meaning
and perfect rhythm and rhyme
but i quickly woke up and remembered
how i am too stupid and lazy for that

it is a great challenge for me
to create visual art
because visual art has to be cool
and can not be cringe
because it must decorate
and present the collector
as powerful, smart, successful.
and all visual art i make
is ugly, stupid, cringe,
which is how i like it.

i have been writing poems
in this poetry stream
for more than twenty years.

i do not know
when i wrote my poems
so i decided to just number them.

when i started
numbering my poems
i thought there are thousands.

actually there are only 684
and most of them were written
in the last few years.

i disappointed myself again
by proving to myself
what a shitty poet i am.

i took me more than twenty years
to write only 684 poems.
and not one single poem rhymes.

pathetic!

i am getting
more stylish and less shitty
at writing poems
which is not good
because i like my poems best
when they are super shitty.

i wish i could go back in time
to when i was super shitty
and stay there forever
because i am afraid of
becoming even more stylish.

we are told to appreciate
old and perfectly styled poetry
instead of
shitty poetry written five minutes ago
because poetry is
the most powerful weapon of truth

i know i have been writing
a lot of political angry poems
but this is how i feel
these days.
i am sorry for this.
if you are bored by my political angry poems
you can go to nikolatosicpoetry.com
and find my other poems
back when i was not so political and angry
or you can just wait for me to start
writing other poems again.
i can not be political and angry forever.
i am sorry.

you never know
when you will write
a good poem

you write a lot of
really bad poems
and suddenly
there is a good one